what to say….

I’d just like to point out that a band I’m in is playing tomorrow, 12/19/2008, in case anyone wants to come out and be silly with me that night. more details available at http://www.chunkrockrecords.com/calendar.

Moving on from there…the whole velocity DJ gig thing has started to simmer down. Even Tommy posted about maybe he was being too emotional in his rants. I’m not sure if I agree with him though. Now that I’ve had a few days to think things over and look at email exchanges and actual conversations with the people involved, I’m positive I got fucked over and was blantently lied to. I’ve even got the email responses where specific questions are asked and replies are not truthfully outright lies but definite avoidance’s of honest answers. I’m actually becoming convinced that there is no such thing as a goth scene with out conflict and hate. I spent a few days really enjoying the fact that I have some really good friends that would do anything for me and would actually confront me if I’m in the wrong(and they have recently)and I’ve also had some acquaintances that are anything but real friends. I’m going to move on with my life now. I’m going to go back to making music and becoming more than the number 8 band in the Italian Alternative Charts, and more than just a band on a comp that breaks into the German Alternative Charts. And I will always remember my true friends that have reminded me that I can be more than just some DJ in a small scene in a small town where nothing comes from or ever becomes. I’ve bitten back my angst quite a bit on this whole thing…and I’ve been dieing to just let go….but I think I’m better than that…

Again, to all my friends, I love you guys. I have no words for how much you’ve done for me. Maybe I’ll write you a song.


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