So nothing tragic has gone wrong yet and life is sailing smoothly. I think. Reliquary is about to appear on another European comp and we’re still trying  to figure out how to afford a European tour, but we’re alive and happening. and stuff. I keep wanting to work on new music ideas but I’m also [...]

I actually cried tonight. just a bit, nothing serious, just an emotional expression while sitting by myself. I picked up my father’s ring and put it back on. I’ve accepted he’s gone and there is no way to ever make up things or tell him stuff I should have. He’s gone. I’ve carried this weight [...]

Anytime now, something terrible should occur in my life. I’m not hoping for it, just expecting it to counter balance everything going on right now. It starts with my job, being given a great annual review/raise, a title(sort of a promotion), and a move to one of our buildings that is less than half the [...]

Howdy all 3 of you. Me again. The world continues to shock me and amaze me. I’m dealing with these things much better than normal. anywho…I should catch you all up on the last night wonderment. So crux shadows came through again last night for the first time in 15 months. I was a little [...]

I’m totally in this weird zone right now. trying to take myself out of my real life to look back at it and gain a sense of understanding and comprehend. ….yeah and the sick and sad idea of just kill yourself now so it ends on a high note is back….but i think i’m getting [...]

So it’s been a weird start of a new year for me and those around me….you have no idea There is so much going on in my  world and I so need a week in the dark with no noises…and I don’t see it happening soon…what’s the point of having 5 weeks vacation saved and [...]