So, I’m still going on….yeah I’ve got some life in me. I have a ton of stuff to right about, life, work, music, friends, and such….but I keep finding myself going back to music. I’m in a weird creative state right now. I know that I should try to keep it from being all depressive [...]

I really wish I hadn’t needed to do the FMLA stuff today but felt it was kind of necessary. On the way back I realized that Suriel and I had spent over $1500 during the last 7 weeks while I was taking off 4 weeks from work. That’s just what 17 trips between here and [...]

Well I finished with placing my father next to my brother and am now going to try getting back to life. as much as possible. I really should have been writing all this time during the process but it’s been quite hectic and uncontrollable. I’m tired and I work in the morning so I’ll try to [...]

Days later and my father is still dead. Not that I expected him to suddenly appear or anything. I was just hoping for some other tragedy or obsticle to occupy me. So much to do and arrange….and we have it semi easy compared to people that don’t cremate their lost. We can take 2 full [...]

….not much to say…. My father died May the 6th, 2006 around 8 in the morning with lots of family around him. I’ve been told he made some ourward show of happiness to be home even though he couldn’t communicate truelly. But I was not here because I was sleeping after a late show with my [...]

Sooooo…. for the last few weeks I’ve been trying to be normal and social with all my friends. It’s been wonderful and happy and sometimes painful with the laughing…many tanx to all of you that participated. Back to reality now 2 1/2 weeks after I left my father with the next brother in line… Well [...]