So I lost it tonight…  I cried like a little girl or in South Park speak like Nancy kerrigan. Either way I lost it. I made it through the phone conversation with my mom and lasted a whole 3 more seconds. I can’t do this anymore. I can’t be stoic and face the next day. [...]

How strange life is….the way it keeps changing my outlook on everything…  Anywho….  So, yeah, my dad came down with a serious cold that became phenmonia{sp} or whatever….and it has gotten worse and worse. How about I share my concept of the timeline…  So I find out last Friday by email that my dad’s in [...]

you know…I wrote for 45 minutes tonight….then decided that i couldn’t share like that. anyone that want’s to come and hold me while I cry….let me know. I don’t have the strength to do this by internet, but I could tell you everything I know about him in person. No he didn’t die…but he’s made [...]

So I’m still around and able to make posts it would seam.  I am still being driven by some engine I do not know of….I am sad, I am hurt, I am wanting to scream out at the void before me….but I do not know how yet. …..but I seem to be learning….  I have [...]

So I’ve been worked like a dog and run ragged with everything possible by everyone that could require any thing from me latelly.  I’ve been working 50 hour weeks at work and coming close to strangling half of my team because I’m actually working 10 hours a day unlike some of them that just show [...]

I’m hoping that subject line makes sense to some people….and confuses others…. I was going to do a long drawn out rant about the shit I’ve delt with latelly and the way that emails can slap you in the face without warning. Being unable to read personal email at work and doing 11 hour shifts [...]